Reminder of Your Strength!

There is magic in saying goodbye to what you once knew as home. Folding up your past, you may find something you did not know was tucked away in the past. That stuff, you even had forgotten you ever had, like that photo you meant to frame and hang on your favorite wall, or that Harry Potter sock that you have been searching for a while.

I came across something I had written a year before, when I was in the worst possible place. I mean, “the lowest of lows” levels of worst.

A moment when I was drowning, not sure if I’d ever see the surface again (Okay, I know it’s a bit dramatic lol). But I stand tall today, with everything turned, flipped, and transformed in a way I have never imagined.

It’s ironic, isn’t it? Life has the ability to turn things around and around; how yesterday’s agony is so easily today’s lighthearted story. Looking back now, I realize how strong I was, even when I felt like a hot mess.

The fact that I didn’t give up at all is something that I am proud of myself about… and slightly impressed that I made it through all of that without turning into a reality shit show.

Reminds me of what someone told me a long time ago: “Every tragedy in life becomes comedy with the passage of time.”

So, here’s an unsolicited piece of advice for you: if you find yourself stuck in your own episode of Life’s Worst Decisions, take this as a gentle whisper from the future. This is the chapter of the book where you’ll look back, shake your head, and say, “Wow, I really did that. And lived.” Hang in there a little bit, because everything will be okay. and maybe even a little silly when you think back on it later.

It’ll be alright. Believe me, it will.

I’m sharing what I’ve written; you may find some comfort in my words.

Sometimes,
When you look around
You will find lots of unknown faces,
Even at your own hosted party.
No one around you can give comfort to you
or your thoughts
And you slip into these never-ending loops of
what’s wrong & what’s right!

When nothing seems to work out
The place that is so close to your heart,
People that you used to find in your dark times,
No longer serve to your peace

The song that you used to sing and dance,
So loudly on the kitchen floor at midnight
It is now making you cry every time

This is a reminder to you
This is a reminder to me
That it’s okay
It’s okay if you are lost
Maybe leave that party for a while
And take a walk alone or
With those who sympathize with you

Remind yourself
That you are strong
Strong enough to leave your own party
Strong enough to understand such a complex mind of yours
Strong enough to fully accept your own choices!
Strong enough to have empathy for yourself
And that you understand those
Who hurt you the most

~ Monika Kanani